A Sitting Duck

Soooo yeah...I still don't think I can keep up with a blog to be all honest. Makamae bugs me saying "you need to put a new blog up"...how often are you supposed to write in these things? On the real if there was something exciting to tell by all means I'd write something, but no there's nothing to write about. I guess today was kinda of a good day...ish...maybe b/c my "job hunt" or my lookout for a job was pretty good. I got a call from the temp agency and there's a possible job opening in Mira Loma. Nothing is definite until the temp agency can actually land me a job, it just seems like there's a lot of customer service jobs. That's what the job is customer service for Black and Decker....so I'm hoping. The pay is rounding about $11-12/hr so who knows maybe I'll get it. But seriously I feel pointless sitting at home making no money....its not that fun I dare say. It feels weird b/c I'm not going to school either. Like I want to start the massage therapy, but I feel like I can't start that until I can land a job. I'm just really tempted to go out and get a part time job doing something....just not food related. I hate working w/ food.

So since I have so much time on my hands I get to hang out with friends more. Past 3 weeks I've been going to the beach once a week :D. Many do I love the beach, but my shoulders aren't liking that too much. I got burned lik three times on the shoulders and I'm getting flaky...ack! It sucks because it never was that way when I was little, but as I'm getting older I'm getting more sunburned. I think it has to do with #1 age and #2 that's what Idaho does to your skin. Though I'm hoping as the summer progresses I won't get as sunburned. I'll probably get skin cancer sooner than I'd like, its either that or I'll get really wrinkly by the age of 30.

Now What?

So life at home in Cali isn't that great, but its not horrible at all. Finding a new job, well I guess it takes more than just depending on a temp agency. All I'm doing right now is waiting on a job. They first got me set up with a job that sounded great and I was so anxious and excited about it. Then a week before I start, they don't "need" me any more. It was one of the biggest let downs I've had in my life. I thought "Man I can finally get things going, getting a higher pay. Now I can start saving up for a car and school...." In a sense I kinda felt like a kid again. Its like telling a kid "Oh we're going to Disneyland next week" and then telling them they're not goin after all. Right now I'm just trying to see the greater light of the situation. Maybe its a better time for me to do other things...I don't know. Everyone says if life gives you lemons make lemonade or look at the brighter side of things. It is kinda hard for me to see a brighter side. Throughout it all I can hope and pray for the best. Maybe Heavenly Father has something greater for me in store, who knows really. So now what? Its weird because Tutu (my grandma) is moving back to Hawaii this weekend. Its sad because I don't know when I'll ever get to see her again. She said that this move back to Hawaii is the last trip she's going to make. After growing up with her here most of my life and seeing her go, mades me sad. Without her here its hard to live at home more so, its just me, Pono, and my dad. Again it makes me sad, so now what? I'm kinda worried about things now how are bills going to be paid? How is this summer going to go (considering gas prices are rising like crazy)? Again I just hope and pray for the best.