Now What?

So life at home in Cali isn't that great, but its not horrible at all. Finding a new job, well I guess it takes more than just depending on a temp agency. All I'm doing right now is waiting on a job. They first got me set up with a job that sounded great and I was so anxious and excited about it. Then a week before I start, they don't "need" me any more. It was one of the biggest let downs I've had in my life. I thought "Man I can finally get things going, getting a higher pay. Now I can start saving up for a car and school...." In a sense I kinda felt like a kid again. Its like telling a kid "Oh we're going to Disneyland next week" and then telling them they're not goin after all. Right now I'm just trying to see the greater light of the situation. Maybe its a better time for me to do other things...I don't know. Everyone says if life gives you lemons make lemonade or look at the brighter side of things. It is kinda hard for me to see a brighter side. Throughout it all I can hope and pray for the best. Maybe Heavenly Father has something greater for me in store, who knows really. So now what? Its weird because Tutu (my grandma) is moving back to Hawaii this weekend. Its sad because I don't know when I'll ever get to see her again. She said that this move back to Hawaii is the last trip she's going to make. After growing up with her here most of my life and seeing her go, mades me sad. Without her here its hard to live at home more so, its just me, Pono, and my dad. Again it makes me sad, so now what? I'm kinda worried about things now how are bills going to be paid? How is this summer going to go (considering gas prices are rising like crazy)? Again I just hope and pray for the best.